describing a life with bipolar disorder
That’s what can take simple sadness and turn it into sadness squared. It’s what revs up the motor of misery, guns the engine of an unpleasant experience, filling it with rocket fuel and blasting into a place in the stratosphere that is oh-so-near to something like a suicidal tendency- a place where the wish to […]
Finally got two days of sleep in a row- and it feels like the most blessed high ever. Except that yesterday I had the worst panic attack I’ve had in weeks. I had a doctors appointment for something unrelated to my bipolar issues, and there was absolutely no way I could get in the car […]
I’m on my third night (fourth day) of less than two hours of sleep a night, and about 3 hours of sleep during the day. I dearly wish I could figure it out, because I’ve gotten to the point where I’m freezing all the time and my eyelids are twitching. Nothing is working. I’m on […]
Today:
I don’t know about anyone else’s mania, but mine always reminds me of the space shuttle. I can’t figure out what triggers it yet (setup and preflight) but I know it’s coming (countdown). I can feel it with the restlessness and then the start of sleepless nights that no amount of medicines will stop.
My therapist keeps talking about “leaky gut” and how addressing it has helped patients of theirs with anxiety and other issues. If you’re not familiar with “leaky gut,” it’s the theory that all healing (physical, mental, and emotional) is linked within your gut, and our current American diet and food system is so completely changed […]
