describing a life with bipolar disorder
Finally got two days of sleep in a row- and it feels like the most blessed high ever. Except that yesterday I had the worst panic attack I’ve had in weeks. I had a doctors appointment for something unrelated to my bipolar issues, and there was absolutely no way I could get in the car […]
I’m on my third night (fourth day) of less than two hours of sleep a night, and about 3 hours of sleep during the day. I dearly wish I could figure it out, because I’ve gotten to the point where I’m freezing all the time and my eyelids are twitching. Nothing is working. I’m on […]
I don’t know about anyone else’s mania, but mine always reminds me of the space shuttle. I can’t figure out what triggers it yet (setup and preflight) but I know it’s coming (countdown). I can feel it with the restlessness and then the start of sleepless nights that no amount of medicines will stop.
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder (manic-depressive illness) with depressive episodes and concurrent anxiety at the age of 41. Yes, 41. Normally, people are diagnosed in their teens and early twenties, and working with my therapist and psychiatrist I showed signs of cyclothymia (what I termed baby bipolar) in my teens, but it went unnoticed. […]